My Disease

I am sick of the ignorance of you
I am sick of listening to your every cry
I am sick of helping you when you want it
I am sick of bending over to do what you want
I am sick of being what you want
I am sick of you not listening
I am sick of you not helping me when I need
I am sick of you.

The Night

The dark night sky is faintly covered with stars
The night becomes morning as drunks come from bars
Yet there I lay in the cool of night
While the moon gives me light
Eyes do ponder but yet seem to stare
At the clothed night that looks so bare
My mind has left me my body to spare
No matter what could happen I couldn't care
The thoughts of God and angels cross my mind
My moment of truth to pause the time
Grandpas, Grandma and all those who have died
Are up above staring through that eye in the night sky

I hate.

I hate horses. Especially people who like them and/or are named after them

I'll be blunt about my past two girlfriends.

My past two girlfriends have cheated on me. My first, J---a, cheated on me with her now boyfriend Colt. I walked into my bro's house to see his wife cheating on him. I told Janna the next day. Then she told me that of all the past boyfriends she has had, she has cheated on them all then she wanted me to brake up with her. I told her I couldn't do it because I can't live with the "what ifs". She cried with joy. She felt so relieved. The next day she cheated on me.I know this because she told me. Then she peacefully broke up with me. At first I took it harsh but now I have no hard feelings towards her. In fact we are good friends. I just don't really care for her new boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind him, I just don't really care for him.

My last girlfriend A----y cheated on me too. I thought she was the one, but boy was I wrong. I figured she would be a safe bet considering that she was a BIG Christian. Turns out she isn't. She wanted to marry me within the first two weeks of going out. Then she wanted to convert me to be like her. I gave it a shot. I even quit smoking. She then asked if she could date another guy to see if I was "the one".Then she said she couldn't talk much because her cousin died in a terrible accident. Then she stopped talking to me for two weeks. We worked together just so you know. Then she broke up with me. Two days later she's engaged to D--e. She didn't even have the guts to tell me.

He's 36 years old and has been married before. She's 21. I am 19. She sucked at head, so to pay her back I would go down on her and make her kiss me right after. I would later find out that this girl, who is against disobeying the bible or anything close to it, was violating its most precious virtue,being a virgin. She told me that she was a virgin. I told her I was virgin. She lost her virginity to Dave while going out with me(before she stopped talking). I lost my virginity about a year ago. Jokes on her.

I don't regret it. I could be really pissed off but honestly I can't be. If I was to regret it then I would never know what love is or could have been. I just wish that they didn't cheat on me.

We are slaves of our limited socially taught restricted minds. Please let ask to be brought forth from these chains.